I think it's best for me to keep the information behind my sexual abuse to myself because of my mother's mindset. I recently found out that she was raped in the past. Knowing that right there makes me even sadder because I put myself in her place. My mother was raped and her son molested. I find the people in this world to be sick in a way. To take people's innocence is one thing, but to leave them scars of it is cruel. At this point in my life I'm okay with discussing my sexual abuse with my close friends and I even spoke to my psychology teacher about it. My mother comments that I shouldn't tell people about what happened and I suspect that she hasn't had any help dealing with the fact that she was raped. I want to make sure I can live through this abuse but I also want to make sure my mother can too. It's like she's ignoring it with her job and many other tasks. Shoving it in the back of her mind, I wish I could do that in a way. Just forget it, even if it is for a day or two. To just forget the stress, the fact that I was a victim and for letting it happen. I'll conquer this with a close friend of mine or by myself I can say that. I have faith in myself and that's the first step!