When I was 18, I had my first son and when my OB was stitching up the episotomy, he told me he gave me a couple extra stitches and that I would thank him later. I was so doped up that I didn't know what he was talking about, but soon came to find out. Having sexual relations became increasingly painful for me and I would tear in that area constantly. I thought there was something wrong with me and that it was my fault, but I didn't remember until a few years ago what he had said to me. I went to a woman GYN and she was really mad. She said "A woman OB/GYN would have never done this to me. She numbed me, made an incision and had to sew it back. Very very painful for several weeks to the point where I could hardly sit. Now, my problem is that I spent nearly 40 years with this condition and when my husband wants to have sex, I balk because I am so conditioned to the pain that the pain is still there in my mind. I don't know what to do about this...I want to be able to have normal (or as normal as possible for someone like me) relations with my husband. Has any one else ever been through this?